a little evening fishing.April 22, 2016
Taylor Dale and I took my younger brother up the canyon to go fishing last night. He turned sixteen at the beginning of the week and we wanted to take him out for the evening so we could spend some time with him in celebration of reaching this big stepping stone in his life. I remember when I turned sixteen; I thought I was going to feel so much older and wiser, but in the end I just felt more young and inexperienced than I had before (thanks to the added responsibilities in my life such as driving and working and blah). I think it's funny that we, as human beings, look forward to these "landmark" events in our life as if things will suddenly change for the better. It's just funny that, although the things around us may change, we don't change at all. The very essence of who we are stays the same, we just gain more responsibility (and then have to learn how to deal with it).
Every once in a while, it's nice to take a step back from the demands of every-day life. Spending an evening sitting beside a beautiful reservoir of water nestled comfortably within the comfort of the mountains was exactly what I needed. I tend to get caught up in the monotony of to-do lists and adult-ing. I think it's mostly because I just want to feel as if I'm on top of the things going on in my life (even though I've come to the conclusion that I will never really feel as if I've got a solid handle on my own life) but I can never seem to keep up with all the things I want to accomplish.
This world is so full of so many different opportunities to succeed. I get my head set on the idea that, in order to succeed, I have to walk a very specific path and check-off a list of very specific things and eventually I'll be the successful me I've always wanted to be. Lately, however, I think I've come to realize that success comes in so many different shapes and forms. It's my job to discover the path that is right for me and that will enable me to be not only successful, but to find my kind of happiness in every step along the way.
There are many ways to define "success." But to me, success is both doing something good in this world and enjoying the journey that takes you there. Success tastes sweeter when you sprinkle it with happiness.
And that's exactly what I intend to do.